barbiesmyidle

Wow aga in a while since iv been on

im alone so a PERFECT chance to purge 

BUT my body just ant doing it

which is bad because i need to

there ust be other ways then lodging summit down your through...

iv posted on some comms to see



GUTTED though
iv gained weight :(

want to cry
dosnt help with all the pressure from school
i HATE Y10!
My bessie wasnt here today eather so i didnt get a supportive hug (shes sooo good to me im swear without her i duno were id be)

i havnt been on in ages!!

iv been sent home from school

the first time in AGES i cook breakfast i burn myself

so i had to go hame cu i was in  agony!

still hurt now!!

The reading fest was BRILL!!! I was doing so well untill the last day and then i binged :( but i lost MOSTR of it on a mega exrsise :)

Compleatly sunburnt tho.. :( but oh well!

The thing is im glad no1 noticed (hopfully) i dont eat BUT at the same time it makes me think

Why dont they notice im not doing it for the attention (thats stupid) but like i told my friend (or so i thought) i think m depressed n she just went no ur not

i am

my grandad died... which i know is sad butlike it happend or 3 years ago and myn died to...

I feel like no1 understand me

and if that wrnt enuff she started gobbin off at me and called me a fat selfish bitch... i just steard at the screen
 i lost weight though and i was almost beautiful :(
the word FAT screeming at me... shes not anny like me shes bigger.. but it works with her when im bigger im ugly

I wanted to cry but i didnt i just held it backn like always
But now i feel bad cuz i know she misses her grandad but she uses it all the time and its just aggghhh

I know she didnt mean i was fat (or thats what she said) she always uses it as an insult but shes the only 1.. well i duno what to do now who knows about my eating and i just


I need a hug :(

Current Mood: depressed

Ok so having a bit of a struggle but im stikking to my guns..Just joind a new Pro Anny com (hope they let me in!)

Im VERY hungry but im distracting myself with tv, Running, Swimming, and Music

Im VERRY tired so hopfully ill sleep in through brekky :D

Current Mood: tired